💔 What Happened?
That life, the one i was driving away from - It was my sobriety project after nearly losing everything 5 years prior.
While the world scrambled to create a “new normal” just days into pandemic lockdown, I was spiraling fast into a dangerous alcohol depression. Mommy wine culture had already normalized the day-drinking. But being home 24/7 almost killed me.
I had reached out for help—but collapsed in the parking lot of rehab on March 31, 2020, before I could even make it through the door.
My BAC was .417. My body was shutting down. I was going into withdrawal.
I barely survived.
And by some miracle, I walked away with no lasting damage.
The first year was beautiful.
So full of love. So full of support. So full of hope.
You showed up for me. Again and again.
You believed in what I was building—and because of that, so did I.
Akasha’s first year felt like magic in motion.
The sessions, the conversations, the community… it was real. It was healing. It was home.
And for a moment, I thought maybe—just maybe—I could dream bigger.
So I leapt.
I took a risk and expanded into a full wellness center.
I wanted to create a space where more healing could happen. Where more people could come home to themselves.
I kept thinking I could fix it.
That if I just pushed a little harder, gave a little more, held on a little longer… it would all work out.
But sometimes, even the most beautiful dreams start to crack under their own weight.
And I was too deep inside it to see how fast the cracks were spreading.
I wanted to hold it together for everyone—for my clients, my team, my family, my community.
But the truth is: that leap crushed me.
At the end of 2024, during the height of the holiday season, I was forced to close Akasha.
The end was abrupt.
It was violent.
It was devastating.
I fought with every muscle, breath, and tear until the very last moment.
On December 6th, 2024, I sobbed as I drove away alone in my Uhaul— from my dream home, dream life, dream neighbors, dream clients, and dream business.
I knew it was the last time I’d ever get to live inside that beautiful life I had worked so hard to build.
The depth of that loss still reverberates through my body every time I revisit that moment.
That life—it had saved me.
Akasha was my resurrection.
She gave me purpose.
She gave me hope.
She showed me how to reconnect with my body.
She showed me what joy in sobriety could look like.
On Aug 1, 2021 Akasha opened her doors.
And for the first time in my adult life, I began forming real, soul-deep connections—with myself, and with all of you.
That meant walking away from everything I loved:
💔 My business
💔 My house
💔 My clients
💔 My community
💔 Even, for a time, my family
My whole world burned down.
I had to let it.
Because survival was no longer optional—it was urgent.
My family was pulled into the hurricane too. We found ourselves in a new city and a new state—abruptly, disoriented, and unsafe. Everything we owned was gone. We were out of money. All we had left was each other.
We didn’t celebrate a single holiday last year.
Every day was survival.
And in order to reclaim my mental and physical health, I had to go dark. I changed my number. I shut everything off. I became unreachable— for six months of darkness, grief, and healing.
I know that left some of you with confusion, concern, and for some, frustration.
I know it looked like I vanished.
I want you to know: I haven’t forgotten.
Not for a moment.
If you were a client, a friend, or a supporter—I see you.
And I’m here now, doing the work to rebuild with integrity, presence, and the honesty that only comes from breaking open.
How did this Happen?
I poured 100% of myself into caring for my clients and community. I showed up with honesty, transparency, and open-hearted service.
I gave everything I had to my business.
I believed if I just kept giving—if I stayed charitable, stayed above board—it would all work out.
But I didn’t realize my own bank account—my energetic bank account—was on fire.
I kept withdrawing from it like it was bottomless.
Because I believed in what I was building.
Because I believed that being “good” would be enough.
Because I believed that doing everything right would somehow protect me.
But the truth is: you can’t pour from a vessel that’s burning.
I ignored the smoke.
I ignored the shaking.
I ignored my body’s screams.
I kept showing up in the name of love and service,
until there was nothing left of me to show up with.
And by the time I realized it, it was too late.
🔥 The Truth
I didn’t just burn out.
I burned to the ground.
This collapse wasn’t a nervous breakdown.
It was a full-system shutdown—
a scream from my soul that could no longer be ignored.
And even now, rising from those ashes, I’m not interested in pretending otherwise.
Because this isn’t a comeback story.
It’s a return—
to my body,
to my values,
to what actually matters.
To the knowing that bigger is not better.
That more is not safer.
That sacred work requires sacred boundaries.
And this time, I will not betray myself in the name of service.
This time, I am not building an empire.
I’m building a sanctuary.
One massage at a time.
One nervous system at a time.
One act of radical self-respect at a time.
🌱 Why I’m Returning Now
Because I’ve been to the edge—and I came back with clarity.
Because healing isn’t linear, and neither is rebuilding.
Because I finally feel strong enough to return not just to the work, but to myself.
And because I miss this community with my whole heart.
I’m returning not to pick up where I left off—but to create something truer. Slower. Simpler.
A version of Akasha that serves us all.
Let’s begin again.
If You Hold a Gift Certificate
If you still hold an Akasha gift certificate, please know it is still valid. I’m committed to honoring what I can, as I rebuild. While I may not be able to offer refunds at this time due to the tremendous financial losses I incurred last year, I will do everything possible to make it right—through sessions, product credit, or case-by-case resolution.
Your grace and understanding during this transition means more than I can express. If you're holding a certificate and aren't sure what to do, please email me directly at akasha.jenn@gmail.com or fill out this short form: